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well, this how the dream went… its kinda blurry so yeah… my version myt be a bit different and lack sum stuff… hehe

i think it started with us (that is, me, him, my bestfriend and a bunch of other people… we were practicing for a modern dance thingee… i dunno if it wus for intermission or a contest.. like i sed.. it wus blurry

neway… so yeah, it started there, then i remember i went out to go to the bathroom or sumthing…. when i came back to the same room, it had a different setting! it became a balcony without any bars whatevers with a basketball court at the bottom… and it was shaped like a pyramid hanging on the wall so i lost my balance and slipped…. i was halfway from falling when i got hold of myself…. so yeah… everyone was staring at me… and when i turned to the left side of the court (left of my view) there was the practice room! wow, how weird.. i thot… so yeah… this is definitely a dream…

so yeah, people were trying to help me but i cudnt go down bcoz i was so high up…. then appeared a 2nd floor making it easier for me to go down… so yeah… i wus crying when i heard a familiar voice… when i turned to look, it was him! wow! he was gesturing for me to go down to the 2nd floor carefully.. with him down there, i thot, i was safe… so yeah, i climbed down carefully and when i was about to fall on my butt, he catched me… hehehe… iwas so happy then!!

So yeah, the next thing i knew, we were in a school program… but the thing was, me, him and my bestfriend were dressed as animal mascots… hehe… it was uncomfy… even if it was a dream, i kind of felt the heat… maybe thaz y i was sweating bullets when i woke up.. hehe…

so wyl we were handing out flyers to people, he suddenly pulled me close… but not too close… he put his arm around my shoulder.. and he was like, "um, amor… i really like you…. okay lang ba if…. u knoe….." wow!! then i looked at him and smiled… i was like, "i.. like you too… what took u so long?" then i hugged him tight… he must hav been caught offguard coz he didnt respond quickly… then i felt his arms around me… it was magical… like fireworks shooting and stuff…. but yeah, there was a slight flaw… we were wearing mascot costumes so yeah, it was kinda difficult for us to hug… but yeah we didnt mind… all we know is that at that point, we wer a couple…

hmmm…. the next thing i remember, the program already ended… we were out of our costumes and it was more comfy then.. we wer holding hands wyl walking towards the vans… we wernt in the same one so we had to bid farewell for the meantime…

well, what do you do when u bid goodbye to your loved one? well, yeah…. we kissed… well, its more of i kissed him on the cheek… but i felt it.. and its like i can control myself in the dream… i dunno why… so yeah, our parents wer there but apparently they didnt care.. i hope its like that too in reality… hahaha.. so yeah… our friends wer teasing us and chanted, "lips to lips!!" damn, i remember that?? hehe.. so yeah… when we stared at each other, someone woke me up!!!! damn!!! hehe

so yeah thaz was it… i definitely missed out on some parts but i didnt add anything that wasnt there.. so yeah..

hmm…. i get sleepy at the wrong time all the time… maybe bcoz i still have jetlag… *sigh* its kinda hard coz its getting in my way, especially now.. i have school…

its a good thing i dont have classes tom… i arranged my schedule so that i wont have classes on thursdays… maybe i’ll rearrange it again so that i wont have classes on tuesdays too.. (oh yeah, my schooldays are only 4times a week.. kewl huh?) whatevers tho…

tc till here..

well its kind of okay really, but im gonna miss the US and my cuzins… and yeah, feeling a little sad but i’ll get used to it… i mean, soon enuf im gonna live there and its all gonna be okay…

what makes me more miserable is that i didnt even see my bestfriend before she moved to her dorm…. she always makes me feel at home whenever i get back from the US and happy when i feel sad and "homesick"… but we’re not gonna meet again til saturday, and right now i miss talking to her on the phone coz now i dont have anyone to talk to at night… hehe… but its cool tho…

neway, the next day we got home from he US (we got home monday), me and my bro immediately went to school.. hehe..  its hassle much i know… i mean, i get sleepy in my classes coz im not yet adjusted to PI timezone yet whatevers… but hey, i need education! blech! hahahaha

newayz, a year’s just gonna fly by quickly…. before i know it, its summer again, and i’ll be having summer classes! hahaha… well, after my summer classes, we’ll head immediately to the US, so yeah, np!

til here!!

hmmm… what else did i play? the shoot out, daytona racing, taxi racing sumthing, space motorcycle racing thingee, time crisis2, house of the dead, etc..

well, thaz about it…. today, imma stay at home and do nuthin.. jus kiddin! maybe i’ll take a walk outside when the sun’s down.. hehe..

keep u updated

tc

neway, i miss my bestfriend and my mr cute…. i texted my bestfriend, i dunno if she replied yet… neway, later imma text my mr cute… so yeah… later!!!

hmmm… yah, his older brother (my.. shall we say.. ex-mu was there too, he kinda invited himself really) oh yeah, they also brought their little sister, she’s very cute… hehe…

so yeah, we were still cooking when they arrived, so we (that is, me, my beshee and my other gal friend) took turns in entertaining them… at first, the "older brother" wasnt very much at ease because he knows he’s done something "not right"… i was only talking to my mr cute then but i realized, what was the point… so yeah..

i really liked their sister.. what touched me most is that she’s very much at ease with my bestfriend… that’s because at first she didnt want to be with anyone except his older brother (my mr cute)… but then when mybeshee asked her to play dolls with her, she did! And pretty soon they were really close… hehe.. they even went to the playground and had a good time!

of course i cant go to the playground, i have guests…

neway, so yeah, with the two brothers and my gal friend at home, we kind of had a little bonding moment together…. i started talking to the older one… and later he felt more secured…. u know.. i really really wanted to talk to him about what happened to us… but… i thought… maybe that wasnt the time yet, i mean, hey… we just started talking…

i wasnt really expecting him to say sorry ac2ally… i guess i just fell hard for him, thats all, and it wasnt his fault that he also let his feelings show even tho he already had a girlfriend….. hmmmm..

but u know…. to tell u the truth, even tho ive already realized that im inlove with my mr cute… when i saw the older one, i kind of felt a jolt in my stomach, the same feeling i had before… i dunno… maybe im not over him that much yet… am i still in denial??

hey hey, enuf bwt that!! so yeah after the simple snack, the four of us- my gal friend, me, the "ex-" and my mr cute- sat on the couch… in that order! hehe.. meaning i get to sit next to the "ex- hehe… so yeah, we talked bout a lot of stuff, my gal friend was also doing things with my ex-’s phone… hehe…

hmmm…. i think i was having a good time because i was talking with the ex-.. i mean it didnt bother me that my mr cute wasnt giving me extra special attention, altho he was talking to me and teasing me just like before… hmmmm weird huh?

neway, yeah, so there, later, i dunno if it was a setup… my gal friend put most of her weight on me which made me tilt sideways toward my "ex-".. he had to arch forward just so i can lie down on the space behind his back… just then, she started tickling me like crazy! when i was screaming softly and "crying for help", marc who was just staring at me, started tickling me too! on my ear, my waist, my neck… haha! they’re both crazy! but it was fun! hehe

neway, later we had to go to the drug store and buy some stuff.. we went out together with the boys.. they went the opposite direction we girls did coz they were gonna visit a friend… so yeah…. my bestfriend said she feels like my ex has somthing to tell her, but i dunno.. i guess he just didnt have the opportunity… oh well… guess we’ll never know…

then yeah later.. me my beshee and my gal friend had a "crying" moment… huhu… my beshee was crying coz i wont be there with her while she prepares for college… and when i get back, she’ll be going away for her dorms.. so yeah, i have to get used to her being away for a while..

my bestfriend said she texted him but he didnt reply whatsoever…. well, she was asking him to come over mainly because she wants her blouse back… hehe… its been with him for like 2 months already.. hehe… dont ask why anymore… its kind of a long story…

anyway…. hmmm… well, it was disappointing, yes…. but still i enjoyed the company of my two greatest friends…. we talked and walked around and had fun all night, while our parents were having the time of their lives back at the house… hehe…

hmmm… i wus kind of imagining… what if he did come… of course he wont go just yet.. he has to eat first.. then we’re gonna persuade him to stay for a while… then we’ll walk around… of course, im sort of gonna keep his company all to myself… so that we can talk more… and i cud tell him… u know it… so yeah…. it wud have been fun.. and cute… but, well, he didnt come… so there…

hmmm… tonight is our flight from Manila to Sanfrancisco… i dont wanna leave really, but yeah, i dont have a choice here ac2ally… i hope we go home early… about a few days before start of my classes…. so that i cud rest first before i go to school.. and i can still visit some friends… some friends including HIM… hehe

so yeah there…. i hope i have fun there… and meet some cool people.. and i hope my tita does find me a mate… (well, im not really looking forward to a serious realationship…. just someone to stroll around with at night in his car.. and a real friend…) yeah, that wud be fun…

so there… that wud be it…. i have to go coz my bestfriend’s coming to help me pack and accompany me to the mall for some last minute shopping…

well, yah… im gonna wear my new pink racerback tank tonight…. together with a pair of tokong pants and my new pink ballet shoes…

yeah im really looking forward to it… well…. probably bcoz im gonna see my best friend then and she promised me that she will call my mr. cute and tell him to come over….i hope he comes tho….. that wud be the best nyt of my life….. then i cud tell him how i feel………

hmmm… ryt now as i am typing here, the electricity goes out…. (good thing im using our laptop.. it can be operated by its internal power source even if u unplug it…. hehe) and it starts raining…. as in its really a downpour…. with creepy thunder.. then after a short while, it goes back on… good thing tho…. i was just gonna start unplugging appliances here… hehe.. but its still raining…

neway, this wud be our last night here in manila… well…. were going back in two weeks so we wont be missing a lot…. so yeah… i kind of cant wait fot our trip tomorrow.. im almost all set….

hmm…. well, just kidding…. im tranferring to

Olivarez

College

Paranaque

, from Southville International school… hmmm… why? lets just say im gonna have difficulties on my 2nd year if i stay there…..

to all my friends in southville, im gonna miss u all… to my enemies, u cud say

ur

lives are spared… hehehe joke… i dont have any enemies… believe me or not…

so yeah.. gud luck to all of us… especially me… now that im finally on my 2nd year…. im gonna have Anatomy and health care… so yeah.. i nid prayers!!!! i love u all!!! i’ll be seeing u!

maybe i’ll visit southville sometime this semester… luv y’all…